Friday, September 5, 2008
become stupid
i feel like an idiot these few days..
i feel that i am not being cared or being loved...
am i over sensitive??? i try to be kind, gentle..
but it seem like i have failed...
i have failed my test...
i still cant get over the test for thinking too much...
why do i feel insecure once again???
is it becos i asking too much again???
i tried my best to be the best le...
but it seem like i have no right to be ppl gf..
i am a failure without love..
i have experience before but once again i failed...
should i give myself another chance or i should just change my mindcept..
love a gal not a guy..
or izzit tat i dun even have the chance to love someone...
am i really that bad??? should i just kill myself and reborn so tat i will have new life??
pls tell my choice...Labels: fall
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Wednesday, September 3, 2008
LOST
hahaha... ever since i got this acc this is the fivth time i have a post..
why do i need to post out?? actually i dun have a intention to do any posting at all.
this blog is just to see what my friends is doing recently, how are they and so.
but now i have some feelings which i want to sae but i dunno how to express out.
so i intend to post it out, better den i tok with someone.
recently i have a feeling which goes deep into my mind that tells me i am a big failure.
i have a suck charc, brainless, not gentle enff and super aunty.
suck charc is becos i like pretty gals.. trust me, realli like.
but.... i dun like them to be near to my dear dear..
brainless is becos i create trouble for sister to handle it for me.. so i am so useless..
not gentle enff is becos when i see those girls rite who can speak softly like speaking in the air...
i felt ashame, damn ashame... i was not born with gentle voice.. or sweet voice..
i tend to walk like no body business, talk loudly like ppl owe me money..
i hate that kind of me.. i keep asking myself is those gals acting too good?? or am i really being too rude??
i dun realli like to make up, but without make up i feel tat i am out of this world...
now whenever i walk on the street there is full of power of ppl face...
but mine?? pale only i can say...
what should i do?? haizLabels: fall
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